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Name: Yush
Birthday: 8/6/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: dance, sleep, reading, writing, tv watching, eating, talking
Expertise: being a little weird and not making sense
Occupation: Student


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Sunday, July 12, 2009

HOME

Arcadia pretty much is as "meh" as I remember it to be, but on the bright side LA is turning out to be alot nicer than I thought.


Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Almost over

This about a week and a year ago I received this email from PIA.

"Hi  Yushin:
Please call today. Good news..
ATV"

I remember calling my mom and saying "Mom!! Mom!! Mom!! I got this email from PIA saying good news..."

And what was my mom's reaction? 
"OH NO! YOU GOT THE POST DIDN'T YOU? YOU MUST HAVE IF THEY SAID GOOD NEWS!"

We were all supposed to be happy that I got the post.  Afterall, it was the most sought after post and I had beat out some very qualified and talented people.  The thing is none of us really were. It had taken PIA and ABS-CBN months to finally make a decision.  By that time, I had long convinced myself that it wasn't meant to be and that I was better off without the fellowship.  In fact, I remember thinking I don't want to be part of an organization that takes such a long time and never meets deadlines.
 
So of course I called Anastasia and found out that yes, I had been chosen for the post. I thought I hide my disappointment pretty well, but apparently, I was wrong.  Anastasia picked up on it almost immediately.  I had to spend the next 15 minutes explaining why I didn't sound excited to the person I had only months earlier furiously promoted myself to (NOT FUN). We ended the phone call with the agreement to meet in Manhattan in the next few days.
 
The thing is I remember the moment I had turned over the contract and the my fellowship fee. I remember the sunny but breezy NYC weather.  I remember calling Matt and telling him how nervous and excited I was about the whole thing the minute I left the restaurant. What I can't remember is when I actually made the decision to take the position.  In retrospect, I don't think I ever made a conscious decision.  The decision was probably made long before I was even offered the position.  It was an opportunity that was impossible to turn down.  Maybe that's why I felt so awful the moment I read that email in my cousin's apartment that spring afternoon. The decision had been made and I didn't really make it.
 
Don't get me wrong PIA didn't corner me into taking the post or anything but it felt like something I had to do whether I wanted to or not. It was fate. 
 
I think fate got it right.  I needed to get out and explore the world.  I just wish fate would make all the other decisions in my life too like what to do next =\.


Friday, March 27, 2009

stop dying please?

When I was younger I remember more than a hundred people attending my great grandma's birthday party every year. This year for my grandfather's 90th birthday we had 50 something people.  Many if not most of my grandparent's friends almost all of whom were fixtures in my life growing up have passed on.  It's just scary and sad. 







Tuesday, December 16, 2008

going without..

My apartment complex is pretty darn convenient.  I even have a trash shoot on my floor =)

Just earlier, I had just finished my shower and noticed a pungunt smell....crap the raw chicken skin from the chicken curry I made last night... eww...

Normally I wear my PJs out to toss the trash out at night.  My PJs consist of a tanktop and boxer nothing too scandalous.  But tonight was bit different.

I went outside to toss the trash without a bra on! Oh the horror!  I felt so skanky.  It probably would have been worth the effort to put on the bra to avoid the horrible feeling of being improper. Of course, no one saw me, but all the same I felt embarrassed.

It got me thinking... plenty of people go out braless and in public too! Don't those women feel naked?  There really isn't anything wrong with going braless.  Why do I never go braless? There are certain women of the more well endowed sort that really shouldn't because they will just cause themselves back problems in the future, but I, being my mother's daughter and Asian, obviously do not fall in that category.  If anything I fall in the opposite one. Yet, I've never gone without and most likely never will.

So comments. Why do you decide to wear a bra or go *ahem* free?  As for the guys.. is this even something you notice?

 


Monday, November 17, 2008

I'm American..Not Stupid...

Really these days with the treatment that I get as an American, you would think that all Americans are douchey-idiots.  Granted that I'm sure there is a grain of truth to that somewhere, just like there is a grain of truth to the belief that the French are pompous.

About a month and a half ago, I was covering an event organized by the EU commitee here in Manila.  It was fun though somewhat nerve-wracking to be talking to all these ambassadors.  Most of them, I met because I actively sought them out for interviews. The Dutch ambassador though was a different story. We literally bumped into each other.  After brief apologizes. we made small talk. 

Dutch Am: You don't sound like you're Filipino.

Me: Oh, that's because I'm not.  I'm an American.

Dutch Am: Oh! I'm sorry to hear that dear.

Seriously! I thought these amabassador types were supposed to be PC?  The guy was otherwise funny and an engaging guy to talk to but really!

Then later when he introduced me to the French Ambassador (who by the way wasn't pompous at all and a very nice man)

Dutch Am: This lovely young lady here is in the Philippines on a fellowship with ABS-CBN.  She unfortunately is an American.

I don't know what the guy had against Americans.  If it had been an ambassador from another country I think I would have been a little less surprised, but he was DUTCH.  The Dutch are remarkably accepting people.  I spent over a week in the Netherlands and unlike everywhere else I went that semester I never felt like people were looking at me funny.

Then today I was arranging an interview with this guy for a story about a career fair.  I needed to get a bit of his career background to see if he was a suitable pick.

Me: So if you don't mind, can you tell me a bit about your career so far?

Him: I worked at KFC as CIO. You know what KFC is right?  Kentucky Fried Chicken? The fast food place?

Me: Um.... yes.. I am familiar with it.

THE FILIPINO MAN asked ME, AN AMERICAN, if I knew an AMERICAN FAST FOOD CHAIN. 

Though in this case I am happy to report that it just says more about him than it does about the opinion of Americans internationally.  He knew I was an American and still asked me that.  It kinda just made him look like an idiot.

Anyways, let's hope public opinion of Americans gets better in the next four years. 



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